The "Happy Feeling"

Of late I've been watching the air-planes fly in and fly out of the Bangalore skies ... me sitting in the balcony at 11 in the night .. looking at the path-way the air borne planes take ... sometimes trying to track them ... and some times - simply looking at them - adoring them.
Dont exactly remember when, but I started realizing that I have developed a kind of interest in this flying machine --- gave a deeper thought to it ... and discovered ... its the interest for "flying the machines" ... rather than "the flying machine" itslef !!
It was then that I started observing those flying objetcs closely - I used to sit in the balcony of my house at 11 - 11:30 in the night after returning from the office and watch them fly in and fly out -- I felt good doing that :)
But this "goodness feeling" didn't lasted for long - it was short lived.. rather very short lived - only for a couple of days. After experiencing the so called "good feeling" for 3 days ... the 4th day I didn't felt so good. I didn't sit there for long also ... came back to my bed ... and slept thinking what happened ... why ... why is it that I m not feeling "happy" today ... after watching so many machines .....
There was something .. something strange ... something not usual ... something that didn't gave me a satisfied feeling ... something which was starting to make me feel uncomfortable ... ....

Next day morning I woke up with a clear mind ... didn't tried to recall .. or rather .. didn't got a chance to recall what happened last night. The reason being the busy schedule of an IT professional ... thats me --- get up 10-15 minutes late from the scheduled time ... get busy doing the daily morning activities - brush ur teeth without wanting to ... see if theres some 5-10 minutes extra today - if yes then do the shaving else forget it - will see tomorrow morning... take bath qucikly ... think which shirt to wear today while taking the bath ... do the pooja within a minute - as if doing a favour to God ... get back to the kitchen - fill the plate with the so called "tasty" breakfast and have it while getting ready for office.
Finally ... pick up the helmet and vrrrroommm - off to office ... !!!
Yes .. thats my daily morning schedule. Now YOU tell me dear sir/mam ... how would you expect a person to remember anything that happened to him last night; or any thoughts which passed through his mind just before going to bed last night... among this busy morning schedule??
This day went fine ... came back to home in the night and sat in the balcony all alone at around 11 'O'clock after having dinner. One amazing thing to notice here is that although I didn't even thought about anything today morning and throughout the day... but the moment I step out of office late in the evening and start my bike for riding back home ... the thoughts .. which I had last night ... starts coming to the mind again ... It starts with a single thought .. which continues to multiply itself as I ride towards home. By the time I reach home it feels like my head is fully loaded with all these thoughts ... there's just no space for any other thought to get in ... it just can't accomodate with these - the flying machine thoughts.
And inspite of the fact that my head is overflowing with the thoughts ... I still feel the lightness in my mind ... these thoughts ... though heavy .. yet make me feel very light and happy ... when my mind if full of them. Its not only my mind ... but the entire body of mine ... filled up with these thoughts ...
Scientifically its proven, that head is the heaviest part of the human body ... but with all the loaded thoughts of flying machines in my mind ... I defy the scientific theory... I instantly feel as if my head is the lightest part of my body.... thats me .. when I stop my bike in front of the house in the night to call it the end of the day ...
But hey .. hold on ... its not the end of the day yet ... there's still another activity pending .. which I need to complete before I call it a day ... and that is sitting in the balcony .. watching the aircrafts fly through the dark blue skies !

Today is the 4th day since I realized my interest & liking towards those flying objects; and started feeling the so called "happy" feeling after doing the last activity of my day ... i.e. watching the airships fly across the blue ocean called SKY !!
Today is the day which is going to be a bit more memorable than the other usual ones .... today is the day which would make me realize something else ... something apart from the happy feeling .... today is the day which would put up a question mark on my "happy feeling" ... and who knows ... this could be the day which "might" change my life ... and my future ahead .... which "might" make me remember this day for the whole of my life .....
today is the day ....

(to be continued...)